Bufo, Raven, Heron

December 14th 2023

"I sat in Bufo ceremony for the first time a week ago, and while I am feeling incredible, I am having this fluttering, or spasming down the left side body. It is superficial and feels almost like a tickle. When I try to touch it, it stops. It's the strangest thing, but I guess that would be my biggest complaint right now. Aside from that, I am integrating this Bufo experience and what it all means."

I suggested that the spasms could be something coming to the surface from the past. When things express themselves on the left, it is often left (over) from the past, and rooted in the feminine. I could see this struck a chord within her, though, she didn't elaborate. I never push anyone to share the details, I am just offering suggestions of where to explore within oneself for answers, or keys. I explain the flow of my sessions and step out of the room so that she can get comfortable on the altar.

I ignite the sacred flame and smudge the space clean. We are calling forth the gift of prayer and calling forth the ability of out-of-body experience so that she may join in on the healing, guide my hands, and even work on herself. I remind her that we do not wish to re(lease), we wish to liberate. That which you wish to liberate is desiring to be liberated from the whole. So, as you send out your prayers of liberation remember they are for you, and the whole. The sound bath begins.

We have arrived, void of time and space, present in the ever-expansive NOW. She is bound from her root to her crown. Ancient wounds armored deep within her lower left back. I find the epicenter, in the space between her last rib and sacrum in a muscle called the quadratus lumborum. Her breathing intensifies. I close my eyes and look within. Her younger Self is present. Her future Self is present. Her guardians are present. They hold her as we work together to liberate the trauma from her childhood that's being held here. I see a giant black hole open on her back, and hundreds of ravens come flying out. We seal the hole with light and her muscles begin to melt under my fingers. I move up to the rhomboids, the muscles in between the shoulder blades. I moved into a spot that caused her to begin twitching. She isn't in pain, this is energetic. Her breathing unites with the energy and her entire left side begins to twitch. Again, I close my eyes and I am shown golden watery light trickling through her muscles, and the twitching subsides as her breathing returns to normal. The rest of the bodywork is deeply relaxing.

The session closes and I return to have her pull a card. Blue Heron - Self-reflection. Are you willing to dive into the watery depths of your feelings and discover the role of your spiritual essence? Seems appropriate after sitting with a medicine like Bufo.

I share with her what I experienced while working on her left side and she is amazed. She says, "WoW! While you were working on that area, I was brought back to a memory I don't think about often, from when I was two years old. I got meningitis and was put into quarantine. I was all alone and was locked in this room surrounded by men in HAZMAT suits. I had to get a spinal tap. It was so traumatizing for me, I was so scared and had no idea what was going on. And that lower left back area is a spot that chronically bothers me, and I hadn't even mentioned that to you, you just went right to it! It feels so good in there!" THIS is the nourishment my passion requires and good golly does it light me up every time!

I reach my hand out to take the deck of cards from her and I notice her take a quick look at the card that's on the bottom of the deck... I asked, "Hang on..... is that frog on the bottom of the deck?!?!?" "YES!!!!!"

Thank you for the "hello" dearest Bufo.

When we can map the physical, mental, emotional, spiritual, and energetic stories, we can remember our essence and weave with awareness, the tapestry of our experience.